I'm Tired Of This!

From a distance you see things a little clearer
although from a distance you see many other things as well
Peter's now really nothing but a blur of something someday happened
The Prince is so far away I don't really care
HE is just someone I could finally get over from and a relief
but this new one... DEAR GOD!

In a way he's always been there
and in a way I've always agreed
I've accepted I have something for the guy
but I never thought I'd be writing about him here
I never thought he would bring tears to my eyes as many others have

He's tecnically all I've ever wanted
he's got everything from the list
one day I'm like 'yeah he's there, great!'
then I'm like 'Oh my God! This is it!'
and now somebody's saying 'he's just like everyone else',
'I saw him with someone outstage'.

Everytime that I finally get up on my feet
from falling down the cloud
Something happens that I'm pushed out again

And I'm kind of tired of it.

I've never really got to say 'I'm happy'
I've never really got anything back
Nothing's ever happened
That space I need to fill is empty
and noone seems to want to help

'He's too handsome to just be thinking of you'
Hey! where did the cloud go?!

"My Other Half?"

I once read a book, a novel, where there were people who believed in "the other half". It was said that at the beggining of Creation, God had to split Adam and Eve's souls to populate the Earth and so humanity kept on growing that way. For someday, those missing halfs would find each other and stay together. There were male and female halfs, but most of all, those who would meet again would be male and female to be a right couple. There could be more than one other half possible to find and that's when the "love triangles" would begin. That's when you say that it is possible to love more than one person at once. I kept thinking about that after I finished the book, but I didn't really pay much attention to it. I mean, Other Half? What the heck is that? I don't believe it yet... and I NEVER will! But I couldn't help but thinking about that today. I saw him today. It's quite weird for me. It's never happened before! But I admit, when I met him for the first time, I saw something... something (I think) now he's not ignoring anymore. According to the book, those who were chosen to know about these other halfs would be able to recognize theirs by a blinking light above the shoulder. If it was true, I would be blinded by the light in his shoulder. I know he's so not the one for me. He's married! His wife is so nice and sweet and loveable! No wonder why they're together! AND... he has four children! I'm amazed by myself this time. Am I that crazy already?! I might as well be, I admit. But, then who can explain what has been happening lately? He's been staring. He's been looking. He's been creating the scene. That scene that I've been into so many times before. I could say I feel attracted to him somehow. Actually he's the one that I want... 20 years later! He even has the right name.He right sense of humor. The right talent for music. The right haircut! This is so weird. Sometimes I lose myself and start thinking how it would be like to kiss him. To have the look with him. I know it's wrong. And it's not like anything is ever gonna happen. IT WONT'! But, I just can't help but wonder "what if?".