I'm Not Over This Yet!

I don't, really don't want to feel like this.
I miss you and I know I shouldn't
I love you and I know I shouldn't
I hear your name and somehow it's all better
But I see your face and it's all worse

I dream about you all the time
I imagine myself in your arms,
holding your hand,
losing myself in your eyes,
kissing your lips;
so lovely, so warm, so meaningfull.

But all I get is some other girls in your arms,
someone else holding your hand like is some kind of game,
your eyes looking at me like they do,
your lips closed holding in who knows what.

I miss you, I miss YU!
All I wish for is for YU to miss me too.

What if...

I've been waiting for yesterday all year
always wondering what would happen if...

if we would ever fix whatever we've broken
if someday you talked to me like we used to
if maybe your eyes wouldn't mean what they mean today
if that wish in my heart came true that we wouldn't use our lips only to speak
if you could someday open you eyes and see what we've done
if maybe one day you could finally see the truth and understand that I love you like
I never tought I would and that you really hurt me with your games.

I know you know this isn't, like, just a crush.
For God sake's we've been on this for over 3 frickin' years!
and, besides, why do you even still care?
that is the question of the last two years!

You really don't care?
but, why do you care...?
I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO ASK FOR ANYMORE!

All I have is one request
please, don't forget me
but don't remember me like the girl who brought so much trouble
but like the friend you once had
like the girl I know you once liked more than a friend.
Remember me the way you think I deserve to be remembered by you.